Pride

My letter to Zmin! Thank god it's already in Zmin's hands. Thanks to my dear Spanish teacher, Senor Medina! Gracias, Senor!

Twilight's kissing scene!

Bruise >.<

花蝴蝶

《花蝴蝶》27/3隆重发行！！！

I am always able to amuse people in my school, my teachers and other students, with my grades. They usually say, "She's good. We should give her the whole's class essay to read through before we hand in to Ms Mckinnon.", "Why does Wei Syn always get full marks on the vocab quiz?", A: "She's smart," B:"Did you just know that today?", etc. Two days ago, two students even bet on what score I would get on a celebration presentation.

There are a few friends of mine were on standby mode, waiting for me to do something wrong. Phil, would flash a big grin at me whenever I got an answer wrong. Raff, said beating my score is important because I'm the best student in World Civilizations class. Joseph. would always ask me what my score was whenever an assignment was given back. Hain, would always say "I hate you" to me whenever she looks at my score.

Why would I work so hard to get high scores, to be a top student? Firstly, when I started school at SSIS, I didn't know the standard here. I wasn't intending to be a top student. I just worked the way that I could. Surprisingly, I was higher than average. People call me smart here, but people in Malaysia know better. If I was really intelligent, I would be top student when I was in Chong Hwa. But I wasn't. So, it was actually the standard of different schools made me seem to be a smart person.

Secondly, it was because of my horror of age (sound like Bella? Haha). I'm sixteen now and the people in my grade are either fourteen or fifteen, so I'm the oldest in my grade. I feel like I have 留级 and if I wasn't a top student, wouldn't be my knowledge is more narrow? Ugh...I can't even accept that..

So what does my good grades bring to me? Firstly, I impressed a lot of people. Honestly, (and I can't doubt it) I feel really GOOD when I know I impressed someone. Should I feel bad about that? Haha. However, what should I do when the one person that I really want to impress doesn't seem to feel impressed? >.<>

Finally, pride. This top student "thingy" is pushing up my pride. If I get a grade that is below my average score, I feel challenged. I don't want to lose. So I work harder, to raise my grades, back to my usual score. Good or bad habit? Haha. I'm sure that I have benefits from this weird habit though. ^^

Okay..last thing to say. I'm going back to Malaysia before July! So the dates are 30/4 to 4/5 (five days) and 3/7 to 18/7 (16 days). Anyone care to plan my trip back? Zmin, Chyn, Jie? Haha. Just kidding. Love you all~ muakz....remember to receive my flying kiss~ ^^